Monthly Blog - September 2024

There had been a lot of big happenings that month, hence why I’m writing this in November. For starters, my niece was born! She’s so small, but already so aware of everything. She’s surprisingly tiny! I mean, she’s around 7 pounds, so about average, but considering my brother was 10 pounds when he was born, she could’ve been a lot bigger. She tried feeding from my brother while he was holding her and when he didn’t have milk she threw up on him in disgust. I held her for a bit too, and she didn’t start crying until I’d been holding her a while, so I count that as a win. My nephew’s been trying to chat to her and show her things but she can’t really acknowledge him yet. It’s also really heartwarming seeing how affectionate my brother is with her. He’s not exactly the warmest person, except with his girlfriend and son, so it’s nice seeing him so happy with this tiny, precious baby.

I also moved out! Sorta. I’ve moved into student accommodation to do my Master’s, with plans to move into my own place afterwards. I like my accommodation, but I’ll be happy when I have my own proper space. And by that I mean a kitchen I don’t have to share with other people. I’m living in a flat with six other guys. They’re not as bad as they could’ve been, though. I also can’t wait to move all my shit into one space. I like having my stuff around me, like a dragon. I’m a collector!

That being said, I love my room and I love having an en suite. I be shitting and pissing all day and all night. But for real, my room is so neat and grown-up. I loved unpacking and putting things away, both personal possessions and things I need as an adult, like cleaning products. I have a double bed! I wish I was allowed to put up posters, though. I also got some plants and I love them so much.

I’ve actually talked to my flatmates this time round. I was usually too shy to in previous years and my sleep schedule was so fucked up I never ran into them. I’m generally trying to make more of an effort to put myself out there and talk to people and build community. 

Speaking of community, I’ve been going to a weekly trans meetup that Franck’s been going to for like a year. It’s been so cool hanging out with all the people I met at his party, and more. It’s this ready-made group of really nice friends. Thanks for putting in all the work to make friends, Franck!

Even outside of that, it’s been great hanging out with Franck and just showing up at his work. And it’s been great being invited to hang out with our other friends. I’ve also been meeting people in class and at various uni societies. I would’ve joined more, but they’re all on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. I had to pick the one to go to on Tuesday evenings, and my Wednesdays are not free. That being said, my anxiety’s been through the roof from interacting with so many people and constantly fucking up those interactions. I’m just really worried people are only hanging out with me because I’m Franck’s friend, and that the people I was already friends with secretly wish I’d fuck off home because I suck.

I didn’t actually start classes until the 30th, so I’ll talk about uni more in next month’s blog. I’ve also been trying to look for a job, and have had no luck in September. Job searching is going to turn me into the joker.

What I read

I’ve not done a lot of reading lately. I mean, I’ve been reading stuff, just not finishing them. Part of the problem is lack of time, what with classes, job searching and everything else. The other part of the problem is I now have access to a uni library so there are more books available for me to read.

This is How you Lose the Time War – Amal El-Mohtar and Max Gladstone

This was so hard to read, and I kept losing track of what was happening. I’m clearly too stupid for this and probably need to reread it a bunch. Each chapter was set in a new time and place and I’d have to get my bearings again each time. That being said, I loved this. I loved the relationship. Even though I’d already read spoilers, it was still tense, seeing how it would play out and how they’d get together and all the threats they had to face.